To update since my last post, I have changed my career options and instead of going for a lawyer, I'm going to become a social worker for children. I feel that because of my situation during my childhood, I can relate to children much more with what they are going through, feeling and thinking. Children deserve the best of what we can give them. And if we can't give them what they need, it might be best to find someone who would be able to.
Right now I'm taking just one class - Crisis Assessment, Intervention and Prevention. I was taking Sociology too, but unfortunately I had to drop out because I wasn't doing so well. I wasn't as prepared for the class as I thought I was.
Next term, (which is at the end of March), I'm going to be taking Writing, Community Resource and Ethics and Law. Funny thing - I am going to have the same teacher for CR and Ethics and Law as I did for Psychology! I liked the teacher and I'm glad that I get to have her again.
A year ago at the end of January was the one year anniversary of my boyfriend and I. Yes, yes, we are still together! :) We have great times together, and to be honest some bad. But that doesn't change how I feel about him and how much I love him.
I still haven't found a job :( I have applied at so many, but only got one interview and they never called back after the first interview. It feels hopeless to even search for a job sometimes, especially with no car or driver's license. It's much harder, I'll tell you that!
I have some sad news to tell you too :'( A few days before Christmas my grandma died. About a month later, my grandfather passed away as well. And then on the 28th of Feb, my dad's dog had to be put to sleep because he had arthritis in his front right leg and cancer in his hind right leg. Let's just say that the past few months have been (excuse my language) shitty as hell.
Just a few days ago, I talked to my Russian uncle, cousin and aunt. I miss them so much it hurts. And I miss my great-aunt even more because I don't get to see her or talk to her as often as I do with my uncle, and with my uncle I hadn't talked to in almost a year. He told me that the next time they go to visit her, that he will try to set up a skype video call on his cell phone. I hope that it will work and that I will get to talk to her. Just thinking about it is making me tear up because I want to see her and feel her so much and so bad!! It's not fair!!!!!!!
In other news, I have been going to physical therapy for my back so that I can get settlement money from the other drivers' car insurance when I was in that one accident in 2013. I am hoping to get a significant amount of money, which will help me pay for all the bills that have been accumulated over the past few years as well as get a hardship permit so that I can drive to school instead of having to depend on other people.
I miss my little sister, it wasn't right of my mom to send her away from me. Feels like my sister was too much of a burden for her so that my mom could spend time with her fiance. A lot of the time I feel like she doesn't care what is going on in her daughters' lives. I feel like that if I had a really horrible day, she wouldn't know about it because she doesn't ask - and if she asks about something, it's always about something that she wants to benefit her and not us. Oh well. It's better not to dwell on that too much.
Nice post, after all, "What is someone who doesn't help anyone?"
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