Sunshine of Heavenly Blue Skies

Hello blog readers. It's been a while since I've written, but ever since April 10th, I haven't really been ready to talk about my beautiful cat, Sunshine.

A tragedy happened on April 10. Earlier that day, I had been out with my sister and nephews walking around Costco. When I came back to my dad's house, my boyfriend had just come off work and was waiting to go to dinner with me. As we were walking towards his car, we both noticed my cat, Sunny lying on the ground. She looked like she was taking a nap and I didn't think anything of it, except it being a weird place for her to sleep. We got in the car and I said, "Silly girl". But my boyfriend wasn't as amused as I was. He thought something was wrong, so he got out of the car and went to check on her. He was there only for a few seconds before he came back to the car and said, "your cat is dead, honey." I didn't believe him and told him he was lying. But he looked very serious when he once again said that my cat really was dead. I got out of the car and started walking towards her, but I barely made it halfway before he stopped me. When I saw her lying so still on the ground, I screamed and almost collapsed on the ground. He caught me and held me up. I could barely breathe, I was crying so hard.

After a few minutes, he took my into my dad's house and sat me down on the couch/bed. Then he went into the office and told my dad what had happened. They both went outside and after a few minutes I went to my dad's room and watched out the window where they were burying her under a lilac bush.

After they were done, my boyfriend came in and asked me if I wanted to say good - bye. I went outside and sat there for about an hour. I told her that she meant the world to me and I would never forget her. I told her I would miss her every single day.

I took this picture earlier that day before she died. 

Ever since April 10th, I've had a very hard time dealing with the death of my beautiful Sunshine. She was my everything, she knew all my secrets and was always there for me in all of my sad and happy moments. To have had her torn away from me so suddenly shattered my heart into pieces and it's taking a long time to put them back together.

 Every now and then I feel that she is around me. But I know that she will never be more than a heartbeat away.

I love you my Sunshine. I always will.

Sunshine of Heavenly Blue Skies

I dedicate this song to my princess.

You deserve this and so much more.